So (deep breath) I’ve gone out and got a job.
After all my talk about ‘Lead and succeed without selling your soul’ and ‘Getting paid to be you’, this has been hard to consolidate. Have I let you down, sold out, given up? Despite the consistent feeling inside that the answer was to be a resounding “NO”, my brain has happily been stewing over this for weeks.
And as time continued to move, and I didn’t, I started to wonder if I’ll just put it all on hold. You know, just for a while - until the money’s sorted out, until my man stops fretting about how much is or isn’t available, until he stops feeling resentful that I am enjoying what I do, until I’m ready / more qualified... the same old stories.
But as usual, this only ever lasts until I get to work with my clients. And then when these opportunities come my way I just know there’s no turning back.
And this time, something else has changed – I’ve finally started to believe the compliments and positive feedback, not bounce them off with a quick fire list of reasons why they’re not actually true.
This time, I believe in me, too!